Tanner
will be a year old on February 19th. As we celebrate his birthday, we
also will rejoice that God has healed him. It has been a traumatic year
in lots of ways, but also a year of growth in many areas. I have looked
for the lessons I was sure I was supposed to learn from all of this.
First of all, I know I should never take anything for granted. Even
as I held my tiny grandson during chemo, I could not believe this was
happening. Well, it can happen to us. We have no guarantees except that
God will be with us.
I
learned to look for God's small miracles. I do believe Tanner's
healing is a very big miracle, but there were so many small
blessings that got
us to that point. The tumor was found by chance before he became
symptomatic. It was baseball-sized and growing rapidly. If
discovery were much later,
who knows what would have happened. If it had to obliterate
an organ, thank God it was one that we have two of. There were
so many things
like this. Now I pay more attention and thank God for what
he does each day instead of waiting for the "big ones."
I
always knew we could count on our family and friends for help. We are
a large, but close-knit family who rally around when needed. We play
together and pray together. We are blessed with a wealth of friends
who have walked this road with our family. The community response has
been phenominal. It is hard to find words to express our gratitude.
The lesson I learned was that people will respond far greater than I
could comprehend. It has made me realize how I need to help others.
One
friend quoted a proverb that said, "Joy is medicine to the heart." Although we have had dark days, we have found much joy. We watched Tanner grow
and progress as normal babies do, oblivious of what was happening to
his body. From the day of surgery on, I cannot say he was at any time
like the sickly child we thought he would be. He went through fighting
the whole way, and was such a joy and inspiration to us. There were
bad days for us, but not for him. On down days, I would read the website
and it never failed to give me comfort. And there was laughter. A friend's
5 year old son prayed for the baby without the knee. When questioned,
he said, "Well, you said the doctor cut out the kid's knee." During this time of Tanner's illness, we also were able to share in the joy
of Aunt Sally finding her father. Of course, Tanner's brothers
brought us lots of laughter. We tried to keep everything as
normal as possible
for them.
There
are so many things I have learned about myself and people in general
through this. I think the most profound lesson is that people care.
We see so much hatred and meanness in this world that I had become to
believe that people today are generally self-centered and do not care
about strangers. This website opened my eyes to know how wrong that
is. We are still al world community with compassion and kindness for
one another.
I
had no idea that the Internet could be used this way. Thanks, Lisa,
for all you have done.
And
to the chatters who spread this around the world -- be proud that you
answered a need. You have been awesome. You have restored my faith that
the youth of today can be the leaders who will return morality and honesty
to this country. Keep it going!
A
special thanks to Aunt Dolly's BSF group who kept Tanner on their ASK
prayer list the whole year.
To
Nancy, who had a cancerous kidney removed exactly 1 year before Tanner
-- you are a walking testament to the power of prayer.
Most
of all, to all of you who have given your time and prayers for Tanner,
you have shown me that the virtues of love and generosity that God instills
in his creations are still there.
From
a truck driver in Tennessee who prays for people by the mile, to a young
girl in Dallas whom doctors gave no hope many years ago, and to all
of you who shared your testimonies with us -- you are part of us always.
Never think for one moment that your prayers were not needed. Each and
every one of you counted. As we said before, we are compiling this website
into a booklet for Tanner. We want him to know about all of you. We
will never forget what you have done, but because of his innocent age,
he won't remember a thing, and what another small miracle that is! By
praying and caring for a little boy who is precious to us, you have
laid up treasures for yourself in heaven, and God will surely bless
you.